I don't know why but I'm feel like writhing now so I just decided to write something.
It's been almost 2months since I had back in Okinawa. I don't feel it's so long or short, there were so many things I have done in the past 2months, there has been several changes that I faced.
Now, I'm starting to write my thesis again...thinking about Okinawan Identity, and its creation or process of construction. In those great former studies, it can be found that so many hints and perspectives should be learned. Then I ask myself again, what was my purpose to write and show what I've seen and experienced in Hawai‘i? Well, right now, it's just for myself, myself to make my thoughts clear...and sum up my pleasure time in the other pacific island and so on. Surely, there were so many facts and interactions beyond what has been wrote in books. It would be my reality, my reality of Okinawan Identity, culture and community in Hawai‘i.
When I think about my near future, specifically after my graduation from this university, I always question myself that do I really want to continue those studies and researches. That's a tough question, but also important. I want to understand more, and I'm sure I wouldn't make it completely forever...as long as it would continue and keep changing. Yet, it doesn't necessarily in the academic field though. I don't really know if my study and interest is meaningful for someone else beside me, since I'm always just following my curiosity around me. Yes, it might be a source of studies but I could done something more...more substantial could I say?
I'm still pursuing my own interest, but not my life, I think I meant it more like 'living'. Life will continue somewhere else beyond my control. I have to eat, sleep and make my life by my own someday...the future not so far from now. I always postpone to think about it seriously, but at the same time, I know I cannot design it so specifically right now. Well, at least, I will think. (I'm always saying so too though!)
Okay, my thought seems going a bit far from the point. Only thing I do for now is just do my duty, is keep writing what I wanted to see and write, and graduate from uni. That is good try to keep writing in English too, since I don't have any opportunity to write. English, english, english, that's one more thing I got in Hawai‘i. I do try to get more chance to use it. I hope I could get back some sense of handle it in a real communication through dropping myself in a such situation. I hope I can make it in almost a month-long training camp with other students from Asia. It will start from orientating camp for those tutors tomorrow.
The world is pretty much what you create...so be creative, man.
